Never Let Me Go.

I saw Never Let Me Go today. I haven't been this sad over a movie in a long time...

L'etudiant etranger

 

Today was a nice day. Sixty-two degrees. We read parts of Demian in English. It reminds me of Portrait of an Artist as a Young Man. Which then circles back to reminding me of Catcher in the Rye, which was very similar to Perks of Being a Wallflower.

So here I begin wasting precious moments chasing my irrational dreams while I could be studying. I've messed up so much in school, I just don't see the point. I just need a release from the realistic world. And although I have no viewers as of now, hopefully someday, school kids on buses will be singing my name. (Oh Art Brut.)

Genericness is Absurd

Dress, thrifted; Belt, Mom's

First few weeks of summer with glorious, and wham karma hit me straight across the face. Now summer is hideous.

Alone

I run.

I'm always on the run.

I hate turning back.

I can't face my problems

It's really hard.

I have so many -

Maybe it's time to let go of them one by one.

Today was nice though, first time in a few days that I felt genuinely okay. I went out for lunch and picked out a new skirt. Too bad I still haven't started my homework...

shopbop lookbook

Bright Lights

Sequins galore! This is too beautiful.

It's Awful

I'm confined to my house today because I've caught the flu.
I guess I'm very fashionable when it comes to catching diseases!
I'm always one of the first to come down with the illness of a season.

At least I got to spend my day dreaming and plotting ways of affording shoes for the summer!

My mom thinks they're hideous... And I have to agree but there is a lust that keeps my thoughts lingering on them! And okay, so clogs are old news and these have been out for a while but hey can't afford getting everything at once!

My mouth waters at the sight of these.
My gateway to being 5'6"!

I love the warmth these shoes radiate!

These look suspiciously like the ACNE wedges Alexa Chung wore!

Til next time!

Fumer

I've always had a fascination with figures surrounded by smoke in the photos. And I swear I'll do a shoot like the one in Vicky Christi Barcelona. But anyhow, just because no one ever reads this I suppose I better not ask any questions. I just wonder how many people out there every feel like they are there but they don't exist. Do you ever get the feeling that you're so alone that no one sees you?

Let's Try New Things

I whine.

I complain.

I wish I had prepared myself.

Today was not my day! (Especially with all the tests I had -YUCK)

At least the heat was nice and thick and the sun didn't disappear right after school.

After struggling with Lookbook.nu (it must be just me that has horrible luck trying to get a foot in the door), I've decided to try out Chictopia today! We shall see how this goes. I actually don't even know what Chictopia really is.

Chictopia:

http://www.chictopia.com/janax

Lookbook.nu:

http://lookbook.nu/user/55165-Janet-C

My name is...

My name is Janet, that is all you need to know.

I have high aspirations that won't come true.

I like to sip drinks through straws.

I like obscurity and obscenity.

I like hopping trains to get to the city.

Someday I'm going to run away from society.

(Just like everyone else)